Moment of Bunniness: Wucki

With thanks to A P for the photo, here is the handsome Wucki, with an important message about beauty. May we all remember to look for the beauty in others, even when faced with those who challenge us. There is indeed beauty to be found in all bunnies, Wucki–thank you for the lovely reminder!

Wucki

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Loving, Losing, and Learning To Let Go

Photo: Africa Studio/Shutterstock

Photo: Africa Studio/Shutterstock

As someone who is prone to extreme anxiety and muscle tension, it’s no surprise that I have been carrying a great deal of tension in my body since my husband’s passing. Body scan meditations have been incredibly helpful because they allow me to notice where I am holding tension.

Still, I am facing some strong feelings of resistance. Despite the rational part of my brain knowing it is not possible, a big part of my mind is still fighting for my husband to be alive. It is only during body scans that I can feel my resistance in the form of muscle tension and feel a bit of a release as the practice progresses.

After ten months, you would think the letting go would get easier. In a way, I suppose it has. In yet another way, I know I’m not ready to let go at all.

2015-06-06 10.29.48This month, in particular, will be a tough one. My wedding anniversary is coming up in just a couple days. My husband’s birthday is next week. Without him, these celebratory moments become piercing moments of devastation.

It’s strange how confusing it all is, how difficult to know someone is gone and yet to want them back so badly. It defies all logic, and yet it is human nature. We become attached to people and, when we lose them, it’s as if we’ve lost a part of ourselves.

Knowing that letting go is such an important part of the practice is difficult to embrace. But I know I can’t keep hanging on to the desire for my husband to still be alive. It’s not healthy, and it prevents me from living the rest of my own life.

So, I try to move forward in the best way I know how, by meditating and practicing yoga and continuing to notice the ever-evolving stages of grief. Perhaps one day I will truly accept that my husband is gone, but right now–I just need to make it through this month.

Wishing love and bunniness for all, despite my heavy heart.

For more about grieving:

  • Allowing Room for Healing from Grief
  • Running On Om Podcast
  • Resources:

  • Body Scan Meditation from Jon Kabat-Zinn’s Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction program
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    Moment of Bunniness: Marshall

    Bunniness comes to us today from the pensive Marshall, with thanks to Kate W. for the lovely pic.

    Let’s all take a moment to pay attention to our hearts and the wisdom that lies therein–a valuable mid-week exercise to bring us back to our centers. Thank you, Marshall, for the reminder to do this from time to time.

    And, if you haven’t already listened to the Running On Om podcast, I invite you to put aside some time to listen–and hopefully be inspired.

    Marshall the bunny, Photo courtesy of Kate W.

    Marshall the bunny, Photo courtesy of Kate W.

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    Running On Om Podcast

    Just in case you missed the announcement on Facebook last week, I thought I’d post the interview I did with Julia Hanlon for the Running On Om podcast.

    If you or someone you know is struggling with depression, anxiety, or grief, I hope this podcast can provide a little bit of hope. We also talk a lot about the origins of Bunny Buddhism, so if you’re interested in learning more about how Bunny Buddhism came to be, this might answer your questions.

    Please let me know what you think!

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    ROO Podcast #130: Krista Lester on How Bunnies and Buddhism Saved Her…

    Posted by Running On Om on Friday, May 22, 2015

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    Moment of Bunniness: Wild Bun 2

    Our second wild bun for the week is this adorable youngster I came across years ago while traveling in the Denver area. If this isn’t internal harmony, then I don’t know what is. Thank you, little wild bunny, for being such a lovely example for those of us still struggling to find that elusive sense of inner peace.

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    Need more bunniness? Try these:

  • Moment of Bunniness: Wild Bun
  • Moment of Bunniness: BUN
  • Moment of Bunniness: Pipi
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    Moment of Bunniness: Wild Bun

    For a change of pace this week, I thought it might be fun to take a look at some wild bunnies. Here’s one moment of bunniness featuring a wild bun, along with a reminder that there are no shortcuts to bunniness.

    We each face a path, and it might not be the one we wanted or thought we were going to get, but it is our path nonetheless. As seekers of bunniness, all we need to do is keep hopping and trying our best–every single day.

    If I can keep hopping, I know you can, too!

    Photo: Nickolay Stanev/Shutterstock

    Photo: Nickolay Stanev/Shutterstock

    Need more bunniness? Try these:

  • Moment of Bunniness: Julian
  • Moment of Bunniness: Kokomo
  • Moment of Bunniness: Dynah
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    Allowing Room for Healing from Grief

    Today is the first day since my husband’s suicide that I experienced the witness in my meditation. For the past eight months, I have experienced only an ongoing struggle with anger, tears, and racing thoughts that were intractable to say the least.

    Photo: Tonny de Lasson/Shutterstock

    Photo: Tonny de Lasson/Shutterstock

    If I were an enlightened being whose practice had taken me to a level where I no longer held any attachments, perhaps it would have taken less time to reach this stage. But I am not an enlightened being. I am an ordinary person dealing with ordinary life and grieving the loss of someone I loved in the best way I know how.

    To this point, I have tried mostly to be compassionate with myself and to allow room for the grieving process. This meant letting some overwhelming feelings exist in their extreme form for a while. The best I could do was refrain from feeding any additional energy into them.

    At long last, the extreme feelings have settled into more manageable moments of thought. Now, when thoughts arise about incredibly painful aspects of my husband’s death, I can breathe with the pain and let go of the storyline. I feel myself becoming closer to forgiveness for both him and myself, though I know it will still take time.

    While I’m not sure today’s experience is quite cause for celebration, I would say I think it is a sign of healing. I know the experience of losing my husband will color the rest of my life, but it doesn’t have to dictate the rest of my life. I will take this small sign of health as a signal that I am heading in the right direction and as motivation to keep on hopping.

    For more about grieving:

  • Grieving Mindfully with Mindfulness Mutt
  • How to Deal with Intense Emotions in Meditation: 3 Simple Steps
  • Recommended Reading:

    “We think that the point is to pass the test or overcome the problem, but the truth is that things don’t really get solved. They come together and they fall apart. Then they come together again and fall apart again. It’s just like that. The healing comes from letting there be room for all of this to happen: room for grief, for relief, for misery, for joy.”
    – Pema Chödrön, When Things Fall Apart: Heart Advice for Difficult Times

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